Talking to God

Walking all alone, tears on my chek.
The moon shining so clear, the stars was poping out one after the other.
The quiet filled the air, only brocken by the words from my mouth.
Sobbing out all my heartakes, puting words to all my fears, thoughts and longings.
Laying down all my own ways. Tears wash away the pain.
Screaming out, desperat to change my own selfish ways.
Asking questions that has filled up my mind, quietly You answer deep within my heart.
Looking around I desperatly long for more.. More then what I can see, hear, understand and feel..
I wish this night would never end!
The trees at my left side, I know You can see them. You made them. You were there the day they were planted, You've seen it grow all the way till now!
"Oh, how much easyer it would be to be a tree! What more do You expect from me?"
"Just like it started out as a tiny seed, you started out as a baby girl.. I have watched you grow. You're still growing.. I expect you to keep on growing, in love, patience, streanght, faith and responsabillity. Just grow..like the tree.... Trust Me more day by day, allow your self to grow, trust Me to give you groth!"
Longing for something more, something else then what this world gives I looked around - desperation in my eyes and thoughts.
Looking for something I needed!
"Being with You is all that I want, away from all the messed up stuff in this world.. I know it would be selfish...but I wish to pray for Your comming to be soon.. You said: "When all the people have heard, then I will come back for you and you will be with me for ever."
I can not wait, God! What should I do?"
Everyone needs to know this hope that is in You, everyone has to hear!
They all need a chance to join in this hope, this eternity with You..
I prayed, I screamed out: "Please, don't wait, come back now.. Come back for me! Please!" I cryed better tears, then You filled my heart with this hope - this hope that everyone needs so desperatly. The future they would all missout on if You answered my plead this evening.
"Lord, save the people!
Lord, save the generatons!
Use me, Lord, to spread this hope..
Lord, You will save!!"