Cross roads....

Once again I face the difficulty of a choice:

Cross roads

Do I walk by faith:

following my dreams and the awesome plans that God has prepared for me?

Or do I continue on this rocky road till it ends?

I know all too well where it ends...

But can I let go? Can I give up this lie that tells me again and again that this is how it should be?

Can I find my way back to the security of the Truth?

Confessions of a broken heart...

My life is not what is should be...

I am not where or how I should be.

In fact I can´t really think of someone or

something I hate more then my self right now...

Everywhere I go people think of me as a Christian,

but I can´t call my self a Christian the way things

are in my life now.. There´s so much I know God

would not approve of.....

For those of you who read this remember always:

People are only people!! If a Christian does something

that goes against what Jesus would have done,

remember that!!

We have a roll-model, a perfect One!!

And so we have a really long way to go....

We will never be done...Only the day we see Him

face to face, then His perfection will be mirrored in us!

Weither I´ll be there to see Him, I don´t know right now...

The path I´ve made for my self is so dark I can´t really see

anything now........

I need to do something about it...

With God all things are possible for those who believe!!

Stay safe and strong in Jesus, God bless!!

A look in a glass-mirror..

I take a look in the mirror.

Quickly I look away...

Cause what I see makes me so ashamed.

Friends look at me and say:

Don´t look away!

You are beautiful!

But what do they know.

They can´t see what I see.

What´s behind it all...

Thoughts and comments that embarrasses me to think about.

Mistakes and flaws I just can´t leave behind.

Hate, lust, loneliness, longing....Needs..

I don´t want to admit that I have them...

I don´t want to admit that all I see in the reflection

is a corrupted image of evil...

A longing to get away.

A need to be free...

..from this evil that enslaves me in bondage of self-hate.

You tell me to look at You......

You will be my Redeemer.

You will free me from this captivity.

"Have a look into the written mirror!

See your self the way I see you!

Trust Me to make you pure again!"

The mirror of love..

The mirror of faith..

The mirror of grace..

"Have a look into My heart...

I´ll show you My love for you through it all...

Sunsets, roaring waves, calming wind, a hug, an unexpected gesture.

With friends like Ana & Mia....

A letter came in the mail one day... She picked it up, opened it and started reading:

Letter from Ana & Mia.

We will be your bestfriends!

We will go with you through everything...

But we expect you to do what we tell you:

Look at the models, their perfect bodies, leges, arms, belly, face...

They are beautyful!! Nothing like you... We´ll helpe you get there!

Do not trust anyone exept us..They will be jealluse and only take us away from you so we can not help you anymore!

When you fail in doing what we tell you to do we will punish you:

Force you to the bathroom to vomit everything you just ate, cut your body to see the blood flow, hit your head to the wall until you get a trembling headake, or take laxatives until you sit on the toilet all through the night...

When you look in the mirror, when you look at people around you we will remind you why we want to help you: you need us, we will make you perfect just like the models, superstars and acterers you look at in magazines and at tv..

The letter kept going...Through it all she read and wept....she recognized so much from her own life! Words that Ana and Mia were saying, that they had been telling her all through her life through media, classmates, even comments made by people close to her...... They truely had been there all the way.. But was this a good thing??

They questioned her friends, everything about her...

"Well, true: friends should always tell the truth! True friends want to help you grow and sucseed.."

With friends lik Ana and Mia, who needs enemys?????

Friends should lift you up in your weekness. They should want the very best for you and your life!! They should never ever punish you, but tell the truth and help you when they see you in pain.... Not cover it with more pain and torture!!

God let us be real friends towards one another and not anything like Ana and Mia!! Help us to build each other and not pull each other down!!

Help us stand together to fight against the lies that are spread through Ana and Mia!!

Help us want nothing but the best for each other, teach us to know what it is!!

This is far from the best thing I´ve written, but something NEEDS to be said against those lies being told by the devil through Ana and Mia!!! May God help us stand against the lie and reveal it for what it is!!! Let´s stand together and pick it apart til nothing but the truth is left standing!!! Let the word of God be lifted high for healing and freedom for the captives through all contries!!